Aku sngat tension secara tiba tiba.. sblum ni asyik akn tension tnpa sebab.. Dgr lgu .. buat aku makin tension.. tmbh lgi alert mesej... ahhh...!! Skrg dgr lgu Yuna - Penakut ... Ok sikit..Lgu music.. tak racak sngat.. Sakit jiwa aku nanti..Maybe hari ni bnyak berpikir.. Masa lps perhimpunan.. aku gi la kelas balik.. nak lekat barang.. geram aku.. aku dok lekat benda tu nak jatuh jugak.. akhirnya. aku tumbuk kuat kuat biar lekat then tk sngaja lnggar jam dn terjatuh pecah jam tu....fikir nk sapu ke tak .,ke biar je..dh tgh rush tu.. akhir aku sapu jugak. kalau tak sapu esok org cedera camna??? aku tak ley pntingkn diri.. :( aku masuk pertndingan chess.. memang tu yg aku nk.. tapi ngan jujurnya ku tidak layak..:(.. aku mmng harap sngat dpt bertnding.. tpi aku tau diriku tk layak..
aku seorg yg lemah dn tk guna.. sikit sikit tension.. sikit sikit tension.. jess come on !! napa jess kau lemah sangat.. sikit je kau tension.. kau tak bukn aku.. kau bukn di tempat aku.... DIam ! diam ..T^T.. Apa yg dh jdi ngan aku.. back to the old me.. crying alone every night.. last time for love this time for my life.. Kadang kadang.. when try friend my story.. it make me feel better.. but in the same time..they don really care i know.. for they care about it is my life no their so nothing to do with them.. I know it..just sometime i dunno how to keep anymore..acting like crazy n happy.. but i am not..!!:( sometime when they really do.. they thought they understand how i feel when actually they re not.. parent?? no they dont understand.. friend? not all of them care.. God know everything.. however just really thank God for everything i am having now..Anyone can try to stand at myside and understand.. my life not that easy .. Not everything that u re strong to go through ..
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