berletaq

hai reader ,


I have a dream today . It was a nightmare when i woke up . In this dream , i saw my best friend . Kenapa aku cakap nightmare ? Sebab bila bangun realised kami bukan kawan lagi . Actually aku pun tak faham macam mana dia tiba tiba boleh muncul when the last name i remember bukan dia but Mif haha tapi tak apa permainan mimpi saja , at the end of the dream we choose our own paths . I dont really benci dia sebenarnya , i can't , i wish i could hahaha . But i think heart feeling does not really ,matter a lot . Aku rasa yg penting is find that someone yang tak akan pernah tinggalkn kau saat kau at the lowest point of life . Actually tak perlu pun cintakan seseorang 100% sampai tak ada ruang cinta diri sendiri . That is why you get hurt .To be honest if kali ni our relationship didn't make it , what i will do is very simple , i will try again see if there are any chances for me to fix it and i will wait. I will stop waiting when he find someone new . Because that really show that the end . Aku normal tak mulakan relationship kalau aku still ada perasaan at ex lover kecuali dia da jumpa orang lain aku trus break down and cakap ok , gave others a chance . However if Mif ever had someone new , i will be so broken but if that someone can give him what i can't then i hope they make it till the end .
Why ? Because i there are too many thing i can't do , i don't want get married in young age because i wanna my life settle down and stable and i even start thinking perkhawinan just a tradisi as long we re happy together that is enough . Ada sikit phobia tentang perkhawinan too many stories had been heard . Second aku suka stay sini i don't mind long distance marriage but he do . Third , aku tak suka di control aku kadang2 ok then kadang2 gila . I'm so hard to be handle . Sorry but i hope we make it . Aku just lebih utamakan kerjaya i just hope family stay dalam keadaan senang . Lagi satu aku bukan house wife material why? kau nak aku give up kerjaya untuk perkhawinan . To me lelaki yg baru khawin gedik nak suruh bini stop berkerja ni agak selfish , kalau bini kau preggy aku still ok la . Ni sebb kau jealous , please sedar diri , gaji kau 6 angkah sebulan boleh juga . Aku tgk byk kes at Malaysia laki tinggalkn bini and bini have nothing left just herself and the child . So , kepada awek jelita luar sana especially and highly educated think twice maybe ? Kalau kau dari family yg jnis boleh tahan tak apala juga .nothing to say . But kalau aku , seorang bini highly educated , i will try to use my knowledge to helps others , jgn sia siakan .Girls byk perempuan luar sana tak ada chances belajar tinggi tinggi sbb masalah kewangan . Kau ? hmm fikirlah sendiri jangan kau sbb nafsu , byk kawin awal end up awal gak haha . sbb puaskan nafsu je kowt i don't know .

 Lagi satu yang baru break up please calm down , jangan terburu buru pergi couple sesiapa saja because you just gonna hurt yourself again . You not gonna happy spent sometimes love yourself appreciate yourself . I wish i could hold you again as the last time but i worry i gonna end up to be clingy